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I wished this morning for a kiss from you. I haven’t felt you energy for a long time, long, around a week. But this is too long for me. So I wished upon the old icon for this very little humble kiss and I got it. Between 12:05 - 12:08 I felt it. The kiss from you on my lips. Thank you for sending me this kiss. I loved it. It lifted my spirit and kept me strong. Because I’m on the edge of the insanity, longing for you. I am sad and happy, I am scared and impulsive to do crazy things. I am cold and hot and most of the time I don’t know in what world I am. Sometimes you seem to be from another world - so, so far away from me - like from another planet. It’s not fair to bring you down to Earth with me. Other times I feel your existence right next to me, I see your smile and I laugh at your jokes. Sometimes I’m arguing with you, because you are stubborn, you should know I am stubborn too and as long as I have God on my side I always have it my way. 

So this morning I woke up with epiphany to tell you this: “You have to dig, dig, dig really deep into the reasons of today, to find the solutions of tomorrow”. This text was given to me to tell you, so you can think about it . Don’t know what it means, hopefully you will find the meaning for you. 

Don’t forget that I love you and I always will. Be brave and everything will come to place. Meditate upon the icon. And call me anytime, anytime. I live now from call to call...

I did not fall, I did not fail, I did not lose a battle. I just experienced another level of understanding Life. Victory does not define me, competition does not apply to my nature. I am not what I do, because when I don’t - I am not. I am a Soul experiencing human body and life on Earth. I live through all colors of emotions - black to white, pain to bliss. And today I will stand tall with the light shining through the Rainbow. I will learn to give and gain Love  from the Universe, cause this is my purpose on Earth, given to me from God!

This is my prayer today for you, Mimi! Always remember - I do love your soul and your human presence on Earth. Be strong and get well soon, cause I need you in my life.

Megani

Four days left of July. I’m trying to wake up without disappointment. It’s kinda difficult when the reality slaps me straight in the face: “ Good morning! Good morning waking up among deceivers, thieves, gangster, sluts, liars, players, good morning! But they are all favorite to Jesus and I have to learn to love them as he did, I have to learn to love them every single day again and again. I don’t know if I have this strength in me. Love and forgive… I’m a sinner too - I pretend that I trust when I actually don’t. That makes me what - a liar too. Fair enough… One thing I didn’t lie about is that I love you, you hurting me already for so many times, and I still love you… Good morning, Love!

Do not hurt me, just because you have been hurt. My love for you is more than real, my love for you is coming from above, I strongly believe that. That’s why I did not give up on you yet, and probably will never give up. I cross the ocean 13 years ago in search for you, because I know sweetheart - you and I are born for each other. The last step - I’m leaving it on you. You have to make it. you have to gain your courage and come to me. I promise I will not hurt you, no matter how painful it will be for me to follow you, cause you are unpredictable and brave. I do love you, Mimi, I do, wanna be with you. Age difference, life circumstances, distance - nothing can stop me to be with you. You have to believe me. Mimi, I’m talking to you...

Нeщо ме чака някъде, чака ме, само мен. Чака без отчаяние в добрия слънчев ден, в който очи ще отворя от дългия сън на някаква малка пътечка добра...

Do you remember this song?

IN LOVE

Words are powerful. Words are memorable. Words can hurt. Be careful how and when you use them. Sometimes you have to stop yourself in the moment, cause the moment is not right to talk. And the person in front of you will not understand the right meaning of your words.

I'm sorry for crashing in your world with my demanding words. I guess I felt some kind of insecurity at the moment and instead of stopping myself of speaking - I did spoke the wrong words at the wrong time. But I want you to know that my Love for you is coming from God, and God's love is unconditional. The only condition YOU have to put in front of yourself is to accept it or not. That was my question...

I am not hard and rough as a rock in the wild desert. You wont be able to sleep at night on this rock, because the other animals will fight you to get the rock.
I am soft, and cozy, like the pillow in your bed, in your castle.  You will come to me and you will find rest and you will be able to dream with me. Nobody will be able to reach me, but you. I am only yours, not anyone else's.